Today is the 11st February 2008 . In an blink of an eye, February is here, CNY over and Valentine's around the corner . Sigh .

Wentta Vivo with Nathan, Seto and Khng today for Haagen Dazs crew application . I waited for them outside the cafe while they went in to fill in the forms . Then there's this kiddo caucasian who looked at me, smiled and wave hello . =))) . Haha . He's just so cute . But his nose and eyes are reddish, think he just cried over some toys matter or something . Cute little boy . ^-^ .

After the application, Nathan and Seto went to Jurong to fixed Seto's laptop i think . So i accompanied Khng to Takashimaya for Bakerzin job application because her friend working there said that they might need some help with manpower . But instead we went over to Paragon's outlet for the job because Taka's outlet needs no more . Shop about Taka after that for Khng's goggles for Perth study trip and went over to Wisma for some shower foam and shampoo that can last her for ten days at Perth .

By the way, Khng, don't feel bad about leaving me out during the Bakerzin thingy, i am not angry at all . Haha . =) . And Shirley, get well soon ok ? Bless ya .

By the way, if you people had seen my hair, that's something good . Because i'm gonna dye it again . Yeap, not trying to torture my hair, but CYA resumes this week, and the current colour is not allowed, so i'm obeying rules . I'm gonna dye back to black, in particular, Mystic Black from Loreal dye boxes . =/ .

I'm starting my contract job tomorrow . Nervous nervous ~ First, i didn't have any interview with the company so i have no idea what my job scope is . Second, although they said transport is provided, but for first day of job, i had to reach the destination myself . Third, i have no sense of direction and i'm afraid i might get lost on my way there, although that would be stupid because the bus stops right in front of the building that belongs entirely to the company i'm gonna work in . Fourth, politics, my greatest fear of what may happen working in a office job . Fifth, i have no office wears . If you people come to my house and take a look at my closet, then you would see that it's lesser than what a guy would have in his closet . =(( .

Wish me luck people . =/ .

Have been emotional lately . Crazy over some matter which i'm not supposed to . I used to be so strong, but now, i'm nothing but an empty person . I'm barely hanging on . =/ . For hating you i blame myself , Kelly Clarkson said it right . And you know who you are . B'( . Some things that failed me over and over again made me realise that every other things are just not meant for me . And it's no point thinking about it when the results will only sadden me, but when i walk on the streets, some things are just everywhere, perhaps right in front of me, right under my nose and i can't help but to think of it once more . Ends up concluding that i'm just a invisible lad after all .

Give me strength or weak me to death . Don't make me suffer like this, i'll go insane .